Don't Let It Break Your Heart
Don't Let It Break Your Heart
That’s all, really. A girl is in the room. But that’s not all. A girl is in the room and something makes my gut twist. A girl is in the room and I can’t look away from her. A girl is in the room, and, somewhere, something blinks into clarity for the first time.
She’s tallish, just a little taller than me, in ripped jeans and a cropped hoodie. Her hair is dark and curly – curly curly, not like those girls who sleep with braids in, and then talk about how hard their curls are to maintain – wild and hanging over one perfectly winged eye. She’s looking at all of us, carefully, by one, and I jolt. I think she said something.
“Is this the senior student council meeting? Mr. Bremner said I’d find it here.”
“Yes, it is!“ Gray says, standing up at his desk, just a little too quickly, so his chair falls over. “I’m Ethan Gray, senior class president.“
Oh, he’s Ethan now. Of course. I stifle a slightly hysterical laugh behind a cough.
“Tal,“ the girl says I watch her tongue flick down from the roof of her mouth to form the sharp T sound and then I want to slap myself.
“I’m new this year,” she continues. Half our school is new this year, everyone being bussed in from these shiny developments a few towns over. But none of the other new-this-years look like her. None of the other new-this-years have inspired this awful combination of dread-and-longing nonsense going on in my chest right now.
Alana Lucas – nicknamed Luke – is a senior in high school who has realized she is a lesbian and was outed by her friends. Alana was in a romantic relationship with her forever friend (friends since their mothers were pregnant at the same time) Ethan Gray – known as Gray. Their relationship continues as friendship. The complication arises when they both fall for the new girl, Tal.
Tal is also gay and romantically interested in Alana. Alana, not wanting to hurt Ethan, keeps her budding romantic relationship with Tal from him. Romance drives the plot, but friendship sustains it. The characters are all searching for identity and what their futures should look like as they head off to post-secondary institutions. The chaotic, confusing “what-ifs” of navigating love, friendship, high school and self-actualization, are drawn in great detail by Horne in Alana’s first-person narrative.
Maggie Horne draws from her own life experiences of navigating life as a queer teen, steering her characters to love and self-acceptance, despite the phobias attempting to constrain them.
There is cursing, inferred sexuality and heavy alcohol use by the teens in this story.
Don’t Let it Break Your Heart, also the title of a song by Louis Tomlinson of One Direction fame, would be a good addition to a high school or public library YA collection.
Ruth McMahon is a professional librarian working in a high school in Lethbridge, Alberta.